Depressed

Here’s a rephrased version of your third message:

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When I was younger, my father used to physically and verbally abuse my mom. Our home was a very toxic environment because, although my dad showed me some affection, he often treated my mom terribly. He didn’t allow us to visit my maternal grandparents much. My mom stayed with him mainly due to a lack of financial security, as she came from a village where girls didn’t have the opportunity for higher education. My dad worked in the police force.

Five years ago, the abuse reached a breaking point, and my mom took her own life. When my dad found her, realizing that his actions would be exposed, he also decided to take his life. In the aftermath, my grandmother (on my dad’s side) spread lies about my mom, claiming she had abused my dad, and said my mom didn’t let her speak to his family. None of this was true, but when I stood up and tried to correct her, my grandmother labeled me as rude and disrespectful. She started verbally abusing me too, using hurtful language and abuse continues to this day

As a girl in India, I know what society expects from me—getting married by 21, having children by 23, and then possibly dealing with an alcoholic or drug-addicted husband, along with toxic in-laws. This pressure feels overwhelming, and it scares me to think about how my life might unfold, especially considering the abusive environment I’ve been living in. I feel trapped by these expectations and uncertain about my future.