Poem: What if I Self Destruct?--a conversation among alters
What if we self-destruct?
What if we don’t?
What if we self-destruct?
Why would we want to?
What if we self destruct…?
Self-destruction doesn’t serve us
All it does is start a storm
A storm that brings irreparable damage
Self-destruction doesn’t serve us,
It only makes things worse.
What if we self-destruct?
What if we don’t?
What if we self-destruct?
Why would we want to?
What if we self destruct…?
What if we don’t?
If we don’t self-destruct
We’ll die of boredom,
Not boredom, but what’s the pont?
No adrenaline, no fun,
Fun isn’t the word,
More like, what’s the point
If we aren’t fighting to survive?
What if we self-destruct?
What if we don’t?
What if we self-destruct?
Why would we want to?
What if we self destruct…?
Hear me out, I hear you both
Self-destruction leads to chaos,
Chaos leads to adrenaline
Making life more exciting and unpredictable
But have you considered
That survival isn’t all there is to life?
In survival you don’t see the beauty,
What life can truly be.
What if I self destruct?
But what if you don’t?
What if I self destruct
Why would you want that?
What if I self destruct?
What if you don’t?
If I don’t self destruct
Life will destroy me
Isn’t it better to be my own demise?
At least then I’d feel in control.
What if I self destruct?
What if you don’t?
What if I self destruct?
Why would you want that?
What if I self destruct?
Maybe life will blossom
Hasn’t it already?
Look at you now, compared to a year ago.
You have many things you never thought you could have
You are building stability,
You’ve never coped this well
Don’t you see a future better than your past?
My standards for life are low
I wish i could see a future
Like the one you paint
All i can see is smoke and fire
Bombs everywhere,
Life is a warzone,
What’s the point?
What if I self destruct?
What if you don’t?...
What if I self destruct?
Why would you want to?
Did you notice the twist?
@beautifuldisasterx0 This is such a beautiful poem! I noticed the change from "we" to "I!" I think the way I interpreted it was that as the poem went on, the author seemed to gain more control and it turned from multiple conversations to just one person involved. I can imagine the "we" are the alters and then the "I" is the host. I love the progression because you can see the confidence that the person gains and the battle with them and the alters lessens. I love this! The end shows that they are still battling with themselves, but that they have more control than they did in the beginning. Beautiful!!😍
@fruityPond7887
Yay you totally got it! This is exactly what the poem was. It was an internal argument between parts. When I started there were multiple alters wanting to self-destruct, then the host sort of said, hey is that a good idea, so then most of the alters who wanted to self-destruct realized it wasn't a good idea, so then there was just one alter left wanting to self-destruct, and the reason there was no response from the self-destructive alter at the end is because they realized that self-destructing wouldn't do any good and would likely just lead to the future that they described of chaos and stress and that maybe, just maybe without the chaos and stress things can get better.
@beautifuldisasterx0 So beautiful! I love the positive turn of events 💗 It shows how strong the host is!