this Is What I Survived From

@BrightRedFlower2322

Its ​​​just horrible how men treat women I know it goes both ways every time I tried to get away and get out just leave he would stop me pull my arm and block the door I tried a few times to push him off of me or out of my way he also tried to kill my bird who sadly died from a bug I couldn't do anything I wanted to do all my money had to be spent on him I had periods but I couldn't buy anything for it cause he wasted my money and thought it was a funny joke he kept his money bit wasted mine I was so down and depressed I saw a kitchen knife a few times just thinking of death and killing I thought I was going to die I was told I was very lucky cause my ex nearly killed me due to my ribs everyday I thought it was me but it wasn't it was him he blamed his mother for how he treated me I got hit and verbally abused sexually abused emotionally abused and financially my poor baby got verbally abused and emotionally abused the pain and scars will forever remain I have moved forward and accepted the fact that it happened but I will never ever ever forgive or forget that happened to me and my baby the trauma will always remain in me

Oh I'm so sorry to hear all that you have been through @BrightRedFlower2322... you didn't deserve this abuse and neither did your daughter. Glad that you were able to share your story here and i hope it helps you to write this and to know that you are heard and understood. And remember you have survived this, though naturally there are scars, and survivors have strengths which will likely carry you and your daughter into a different future. Holding onto this hope with you.

@rozie

Thank you so much I wasn't sure if anyone would post on here I was mainly letting things out thank you for your post much appreciated :) it was a very hard tough time bit was very easy saying I'm leaving and walked out on him that was a huge weight off my shoulders and felt fantastic I prayed everyday and wished that I could take back what my daughter had to go through and what she saw and heard but I did what was best cause I knew I couldn't take it from her so I made sure she can forget and she doesn't remember my ex at all she has no clue who he is which is totally amazing my daughter and I are very happy

I'm really sorry you've had to go through this horrible horrible abuse! It makes my blood boil to read all the things he did to you. It seems like you've managed to get rid of him already which is fantastic! I hope you and the baby are now safe and that you have all the support you need!! Are you seeing a professional about this or meeting up with other people either in real life or online to discuss all of the traumatic events? It seems like a pretty new thing so it might be a little too much to try to bring up all at once, that's why a professional would probably the best idea right now so that they will be able to guide you better through your healing procress. It all will start to make more sense later, I promise. I'm trying so hard not to give advice here but oh well, here I go again I really hope you've found coping mechanisms for now. Take care Oh and don't be afraid to call the domestic violence hotlines, they usually have a lot of experience with these things... Take care again!!