Processing trauma
I'm starting to heal. But God is it ***. I have to journal everyday. I mean, it's nice because I can set a timer and then move on to something else when I'm done. I feel a little more "in control". But I'm still having nightmares. I have so much to work through and it just feels so heavy. I deserved better. But I have to come to the realization that I will never obtain that same kind of love or safety. I can try to be that for myself but nothing comes close to having a mom who takes care of you or a dad who protects you. Nothing.
While it’s challenging to come to terms with what you didn’t receive, remember that building a loving relationship with yourself is a significant step. It’s okay to grieve what you didn’t have while also nurturing the strength within you. Healing takes time, and it's a journey filled with ups and downs. You're deserving of love and care, both from yourself and others. Keep going; you're making progress