Physical child abuse, does this have an end?
Hi everybody, I'm Becky and I just read a good post asking if things gets better and I'm really afraid of it. I used to be hitted sense I was a kid untill I left my mother's house when I was 18. 3 years have passed, I'm away from everyone with a nice job and I'm still sad, I still feel like in an emotional prison and lonely, nightmares and scare, is the same even when my mom is no longer around. Will this ever change? My family believes that what happened was all my fault, I grew up being beaten daily and of course I was a rebel kid, I was angry with me and everyone out there. But no kid deserves to be beaten right? I hope that if someone out there feel like me please comment this post. Hope y'all fell better.
@Rebecca503 Hi Becky thanks for your post and for being so open and honest about what you went through. Im sorry you had to experience the abuse you did growing up and I hope your able to seek the support for yourself you would like to help you cope and heal from your experiences. Its very common for those who have suffered traumatic experiences like what you went through, to be affected by what happened to them when they are either older, or away from that environment and what you described such as feeling as though you in an emotional prison, being isolated, alone, having nightmares and being afraid are all common consequences of the impact that trauma can cause.
It can change, healing from any kind of traumatic experience whether this be childhood abuse, or assault or traumatic loss etc can begin to heal where you are no longer so affected by what happened, where the pain and hurts of what you went through no longer hurt you to the degree it does now. You can never erase your history, you can never undo what happened but you can move forward in your life, with support, where you can begin to reclaim your life back, where you can learn to like yourself, putting blame and responsibility where it belongs, and make the changes you feel you need in your life where you can have a happy and fulfilling future. Its not easy and I wont sit here and lie and say its easy because its not. Sometimes when you begin to work through trauma, it can often feel worse before it gets better but with support you can get there. If you would like support, there is this community and we also support survivors of child abuse within the trauma community if you would like support from us too. 
we have a great community of members who are really supportive to one another as Im sure this community does too.
No child or adult for that matter deserves to be hit. Abuse is never okay no matter how old or whatever the circumstances were. It is wrong! Take care
