Missing Pieces
It's the little things that I can't remember that bother me.
My little brother and sister went to live with an aunt for a year or two when they were 4/5 yrs old. I remember my mom crying about it. But why did they have to go? It doesn't make sense to me.
I was homeschooled for 4th and 5th grade (around the same time). But why, when we went to public school all the other years before and after just fine?
I had fantasies of abuse from a VERY young age. How did those things get in my head?
Why did I have so many quirks when I went back to public school in the 6th grade? I remember wearing a sweater EVERY DAY, even in the middle of summer, because the thought of taking it off made me panic. That's also my earliest memory of self-harming.
So many questions that I can't answer and I don't know what to make of it.
Hi IvoryLand,
Wow, that sounds like some possibly painful memories that you might have there. Thanks for sharing them, and know that all of us here at 7c are here to listen and support you in whatever way you want. We can help you uncover and come to terms with these things, if you would like to share them. Or perhaps you have some issues that they are causing, and we can help with those. Basically we're for you <3
In my experience, our mind might repress these things when we're not capable of dealing with them. Then when we've grown enough to be able to cope, they start coming back. That doesn't mean it's easy; just that we're able to properly process them. The first step is admitting that there's something wrong, or at least something you're curious about. Then the self begins to accept, and then to heal.
It's all a path and a process. Sounds like you're at the start of a difficult but rewarding road.
All the best,
shawn.
