Lost and lonely

I had a listener and now shes too busy to get on. Ive been in a abusive relationship for many years. I feel alone and have no one to talk to. My search for a listener has been complicated. Ive had people disconnect or even sext me. I have not left the relationship and Im not actively trying to leave. Which angers a lot of people apparently. Dealing with a lot of depression and anxiety about multiple facets of life. Also not everyone is accepting of the part of me that is bi, but I havent accepted totally myself. If anyone has any suggestions it would be great. I was usually online multiple times a week but its been several months that Ive been even able to talk to someone besides leaving a message.

Thanks,

TM