Traumatic Experiences Community Daily Check In - Tuesday May 9th
Hello, Lovelies!
The birds woke me up with a beautiful song and I'm feeling grateful today. I'm grateful for having a community of people who I can relate to and grow/heal with.
How are you feeling today, though?
I'm not having a good day. I was really triggered last night and can't seem to get myself out of this state. Went out this morning but had to come home as my anxiety was so high. I can't cope with having to talk with people Today. I'm torn between getting blinding drunk which I know could make me feel worse or reminding myself that tomorrow is a new day
@fearlessPapaya5168
Hi! Thank you so much for sharing your day with us. I'm sorry it's not gone so well, though.
Sometimes it helps me to remember that my triggers are painful, but my feeling them will pass or calm some over time. I try to be gentle with myself during those times. Maybe it's okay not to want to talk to people, for just a bit. Maybe a relaxing bath or interesting book would help be in the moment, too. It helps me sometimes.
What do you normally do during these tough moments?
It's not enough that my dad abused me, his stupid genes have now taken all the food I love from me too. Idk how to lower my cholesterol because I already eat everything in moderation...except cheese. But everything I can find that has the "right" ingredients has too much saturated fat or too much sodium and idk how to do this and all I wanted was to order lunch and now I'm just trying not to cry at my desk because this sucks and I hate it and I just want something to eat 😢😔
@BeeLeigh
Awe, Bee. I'm sorry! I love food (total foodie here), but a lot of my health problems don't allow me to enjoy the things I like, but what you're facing sounds like it would be so much more frustrating for me to deal with.
What are things you can eat and/or does that change regularly?
@BradyChay2310
I don't even know. My doctor told me Friday that I have to lower my cholesterol or she's putting me on medication. But I already take too many things every day and I don't want to take anything else. I'm trying to just eat what I have at home and then buy new stuff but it's pretty much like grilled chicken and egg whites and fruits and vegetables and skim milk and that's about it. I'm sure there's more but I don't know because all I was told was to bring it down, and not how to do that. All the "bad" stuff she listed I don't even eat as it is. Except cheese. Do you have any idea how many things have cheese? All of my favorite things that aren't dessert have cheese, and my favorite dessert is cheesecake. But if I find stuff that doesn't have cheese it has ridiculous amounts of sodium or it's high in saturated fat which is also bad for cholesterol and all I want is to not have to take another pill every day 😔
@BeeLeigh
Taking a lot, or even a few, different medications can be overwhelming, for sure. I don't know if this will help much, but I found some information for you here about cholesterol.
Cholesterol can be lowered with a change in diet, which has always been difficult for mine since I grew up cooking only Spanish foods, but it can also be lowered with exercise. :) Maybe increasing that could help you as well as the food?
@BradyChay2310
I'm trying to figure out how to alter my diet, but I feel like they should automatically set you up with a dietitian or nutritionist if they tell you to change your diet. 😕
@BeeLeigh
That would be awesome if they did. When I had to alter my diet for borderline diabetes, they didn't either. It definitely would help, I agree. The exercise did help, though (and then I got to eat a bit more of what I liked).
Did you ask them about food/diet suggestions?
@BradyChay2310
She listed a bunch of stuff I shouldn't eat and literally the only thing she listed that I eat regularly is cheese. I love cheese. Everything I love has cheese in it. I already moderate bad things and very rarely eat fast food or fried food. She suggested I get the lower fat cheese and eat that in moderation but that just sounds miserable. I love havarti. I eat cheese as a snack. This just sucks.😕
@BeeLeigh
Awe... I love cheese, too. :) Maybe you can ask her for "can-do" list during your next visit. 💜
I'm just tired of crying. I'm tired of everybody and everything. Everyone I loved is just so full of lies false promises they say that they'll be there for you and they'll never hurt you but they do all of that and I wonder if it's just better to be alone.
@Chavez00
*Huge hugs* Being disappointed by people, especially those you love, can be painful. I understand how you feel. Would you like to talk about what's making you feel that way?