Will you be the one ?

Hi all,

I am a 36 male, I have been part of 7 cups since June 2016. Currently, I'm unemployed, and I'm in the process of looking for work. I have been in therapy face-to-face with a local therapist, for 5 years between 2014 to 2019. I was ridiculously honest with him, and told him about many things, at time I told him I have an addiction, he brushed it off many times. After I insisted, he said oh I didn't know you have a problem. ( If you listener doctor, you would have known ).

I am not happy with myself, I want to be better, I want to maximize my potential, but I feel everything I did in life so far is wrong ( okay maybe not all of it, just to escape the black-white labeling ) , or can be improved. I want someone, or I need someone, a therapist , someone professional, who won't tell me I'm too sensitive, or grow up, I want someone who is loving enough, and caring enough, to take me on a journey of life-living and disocovery, where I can grow, and fulfill my dreams. Is there such a thing ? Can anyone help me with that ? I currently in a very bad financial situation, owing a lot of money to the bank, and I can't really afford paying alot for therapy. perhaps I Will be able to, once I have a job and a benefits package. Until then, I hope that 7 cups has a member here, a student of psychology perhaps, who can possibly reach out to me, or message me, and guide me through this process called life. Thank you if you can or can't help me