Hurt
I'm feeling really hurt. I've started looking into my defensive mechanisms when it comes to relationships. I push people away and attempt to distance myself from people to protect myself. This is counterproductive because I truly want relationships. I'm at a loss, I don't know what to do. I'm afraid I won't ever be able to hold a relationship. I feel very alone. I want a family in the future. And if I do have children I do not want to pass this on.
@Whimsical08 I am sorry you feel so alone.
I found that self acceptance starts wherever I am.
Rather than try to fill up the space without relationships, I am trying to have a better relationship with myslef and not judging it. For me that is the start of feeling better.
Hello I have been through this myself. It came from being hurt by people you loved. I look at it as growth. I can reflect on what can I do to not push people away or avoid others. You are not alone, think of it as getting to learn more about yourself, goals and wants.
