Dealing with depression, alcoholism, self destructive tendencies.
I deal with depression randomly I doubt myself to many things, I think the world a d everyone that's loves me would be better off if I was here anymore. I always been a heavy angry drunk black out all the time multiple times of the week. My most recent episode was the other day I could have lost my marriage by feeling depressed and I drank to ease the pain but it didn't do that made more problems then there already was I was black out thinking of not being here any more but I called someone to come to me. My wife out of town she come back tonight and she was upset, disappointed, worried, and scared. We are working this out. I been sober 2 times one time I was sober for 2 years and the last time was sober was for 6 month. I thought I had my depression and alcohol addiction under control because I really doing good up until the other day i had my episode. Me and the wife talked earlier and we will be looking for a therapist for me. I have past trauma from things that happened me as a child. I'm trying to turn my life around I used be blacked out all the time get into fight or I would just wonder off and disappear til someone come find me or I wake up from a black out hungover to realize where I was at. I used to talk to my closet one to me about everything but I been distancing myself and holding things in lying telling people that I'm good or okay. I'm taking it one day at a time right now and I'm finds positive ways to deal with my depression. If anyone has advice or know a could therapist on here please let me know. I'm trying to turn my life around live a happier life.
@JayNative23 I am sorry you have struggled so but you have had some success in the past so you have the ability to stop. What did you do for support last time you kept sober for an extended period?
I made an inquiry to see if I can refer you to 7cups therapist that deal with addiction and are accepting clients. I will let you know when I hear something.
There are self help guides here which may help including this on on 12 step program https://www.7cups.com/12-step-working-guide/ Other guides are here https://www.7cups.com/supportGuides/selfHelpGuides.php
Here is something I find helpful dealing with urges and cravings that come up so they do not run my life 7 minutes https://youtu.be/RIA2ewXayTc
https://youtu.be/pXWQXDxXg5U 3 minutes and a longer video 12 minutes https://youtu.be/__0dNKJV0zo
Hope you get the support you are looking for !
@JayNative23 hi I got some info for you on Online Therapists at 7cups. The Therapy is $150 per month and is onine text based therapy.
We have quite a few therapists that are trained in treating addiction issues and if you go into the directory and select providing online therapy you’ll be able to find them. Or if you want to be matched specifically with a certain clinician, you can email support@7cups.com
I'll have to wait for my new debt card on Tuesday I lost my phone debt that night I'll look for what therapist suit me for depression, addiction, past trauma, anger management. 2 years being sober was court order and the 6 months sober I didn't want to lose my wife I didn't drink for a while then I starting drinking this year I kept it at 2-3 beers no issues but my depression kicked in 3 days ago and I didn't think I drink my pain away thinking it'll be okay and it made things worse
@JayNative23 sorry you are having depression. Have you considered talking to a doctor about prescribing a med to allay symptoms of depression? That may diminish risking self medicating with drinking.
I don't have health insurance. I a, currently stressed now my wifemthinks I cheated on her when I had my last episode the other from this post. I called my cousin to come stop me from my thoughts it's like how she going to say let's get you help the come out no where say she thinks I cheated I was with my cousin and uncle. My mom was on the phone with my cousin multiple times. Like wtf I'm stressed, angry, hurt, in disbelief. Idk what do right now. I lost my phone it's in my cousin car I belive unless her dude friends took my phone. But I am lost idk what to say to my wife. My wife and my mom and sisters don't get along so she told me the other day that she don't trust them. My emotions are running through the roof right. Idk if I want to stay home or go out and drink right now
I'll sign up for therapy on here next week. But this added stress is not helping me right now.
@JayNative23 sorry to hear you are feeling stress.
We look forward to welcoming you into online therapy :) if you have any issues at all or have any specific questions, you can always email us at support@7cups.com
Best wishes,
I will be signing up for therapy shortly I am transitioning through two jobs leaving one and starting a new one.
@JayNative23 Hi. Hey, sorry you’re dealing with all of these problems. It can really suck when alcohol makes things harder than they were before. Here is a book that can help with depression - “Feeling Good” by Dr. David Burns. It is available in print, electronic and audio format. He has a newer one out called “Feeling Great” but I found the new format distracting. This 20 minute TED talk is Dr. Burns talking about how he developed his practice. https://youtu.be/H1T5uMeYv9Q
@helpfukAvocado7912
Thank you I will print and listen to the ted talk.
@JayNative23
Jay :
My name is mike ! and i am a recovering alcoholic !! 😊
I want to let you are not alone !
I have struggled with maintaining my sobriety during the Covid-19 pandemic !
What has helped me is to continue to practice the 12 steps of Alcoholics Anonymous.
Also, i perform AA service work here in 7Cups by hosting the Sharing Circle chat room.
Jay, please join me in the Sharing Circle chat room !
@ hounddog2021
Thank you and I do the sharing circle couples times of the week if I'm feeling urges to drink, anxiety, and depression. I hope to see and chat with you in sharing circle chat soon.
