Leading life alone - (self-pity) struggles

The self pity consuming your whole being.

Ending up being without “friends” or ppl cause you’ve been used n ghosted pretty much the whole time.

No, they're not good.

Being afraid when you’re low cause there is no one to turn to, to write to but yourself or groups like these (but admit it, it’s more like talking to yourself in diary)

There is no one that can acknowledge your effort n everything it takes to be THIS mentally strong on your OWN, but yourself.

It hurts, I know it’s MUCH better be off from those people at any time, they don’t deserve me either, but it’s like waking up from a dream where you’ve been only a character that played this all n now it’s all over.

Or like a game setting where u repeat or reset each time but w new background n stuff around.

People, I’m very sad.

Going thru so much exhaustion n if you want to be seen u must constantly put up new stuff or something in order to be faintly noticed or visible in these cases (also hurts a lot), nobody to check up on you. Every efforts for others I would give myself like a gift or treasure can just to be returned w nothing instead.

No one stayed, no one reciprocated enough care, it all crashed down…

Even those that seemed to be “good” disappeared on me just like that one day.

Protecting n healing myself is very hard.

((Anyone who wants to talk abt this, in same situation or similar, ur welcome, I would be glad for some company, I literally have no one for these types of stuff, when I share around on some apps, ppl usually try to fix u instead of giving you support or encouragement they just say u should be either grateful or pray, I get this but all we need is just listening n kindness nothing else….seriously, no pointing out where to go or what to do, I only need to be heard! Is it so hard for them to understand or see this?))

P.S.: Pls tell me I’m not alone.