@littleChestnut6051 you are very dedicated by your finishing the blanket. It could be a memorial to her life and a reminder of all the love and kindness she showed to you as a parent and a friend. The love you put into that blanket will not be lost. You must be a very dedicated daughter to devote yourself for your mother's sake.
Other people that have shown you kindness can also be a way to give back for all you are grateful for. That is why I volunteer here at 7 Cups.
I am still trying to adjust to the loss of my mom in the last couple months. There is no way I have found to prepare for that kind of loss. And the emptiness that follows is something that dogs me.
Hope you get the support you are looking for.