My New Found Faith

I have been baptized in 3 different faith systems for one reason or another when I was younger. Ever since I graduated high school (long ago, haha), I developed my own thoughts and beliefs. I prayed for everyone else in hopes that everyone would be ok in life. I never really prayed for myself thinking that if everyone around me was ok and successful, I would be ok. If they are happy, I am happy. Albeit, these last two weeks have been so trying in that I lost my blended family. I feel like a complete failure as a man. With that being said, I have now been praying for MYSELF because I need God more than ever. I’m lonely, my children kind of don’t like me and my girlfriend has left me (with her children in tow) and she hates me. All the U.S. holidays coming up; the family events; Thanksgiving, Christmas and New Year (my birthday a week and a half after that). I will be spending by myself, alone. Just me and my faith. As I shed tears when I wake and before I sleep, I finally, finally, pray for myself. If you have read this, thank you for your moment….😔😒