Share Your Story....Struggles and Recovery^^
Hey, I'm 16 and for eight years now I have struggled with several addictions. At times I feel really hopeless, it feels like every step forward is two steps backward and that I will never stop giving in and enabling myself. Hearing about other people and their experiences kinda helps sometimes, I think it's because it helps to know that I'm not alone in this kinda thing and that there are other people who've have gotten through the rough spots in the recovery process. Also, it's nice to share your story, sometimes maybe, so just feel free, whoever you are, to go ahead and share...
Excited to hear all of the lovely stories of courage and bravery! 
When I was 12 my boyfriend gave me and my fiends drugs and said if we don
@Quickwittedtiger1266
Thanks for sharing, I'd imagine there's quite a bit of pain from these experiences, I'm sorry that you've had to endure those certain things. I appreciate your openness and wish you the best. Perhaps therapy or speaking to a trusted professional would help you get over some barriers your experiences have set up. Wish you the best of health.
@skyebluez
heh idk meds mess up myy libido so get into porn and stuff bit..
and trauma bit just take usualy few gulps of alcohol..
so it's not that much bothers me... thought still adiction is adiction..
lately didn't do it..ok lieing actualy sometimes drink bit but otherwise things seams ok.
@conscientiousPineapple1782
Hey, If you'd like to share more feel free to write more, however, if you wish to portray drunken writing, refrain from posting to this thread, I don't find it cute, you need to hold yourself to more dignity when sharing a serious truth about yourself. Thank you.
@skyebluez
I just take few gulps..idk not real drunker but still may wish to change it.
I hadn't done anything beyond smoking weed a few times before I started college this passed year. It started with cigarettes, a boy who I was hooking with in the fall introduced me to them. Then I started playing around with benzos, pain killers, pretty much whatever I could get my hands on. Eventually I stumbled upon acid, and this was where it got out of hand. The first experience was beautiful, three tabs on a cool monday night. I liked it so much that I bought some more, and then continued to do it once a week for over a month.
It started to really affect how I saw reality. I had more and more trouble discerning what was real and what wasn't as time went on. Then I made the mistake of taking five tabs on a very sad night after just starting a new medication, sending me into serotonin toxicity and landing me in the ER. I swore I'd stop, it was the most horrifying experiences of my life up to that point, but two weeks later I got really drunk and ended up doing it again. This time was worse. Alcohol and acid do not mix well, and this acid was much stronger than what I'd bought before. When I came to the next morning I was thought I was covered in sweat, but realized it was actually my own tears. Again, swore I'd never do it again, but just last week I did five tabs of that really strong acid.
It's hard adjusting to reality again. It's hard coping with life after psychedelics. It's scary and meaningless and bad. Now I just do lots of poppers to get by.
@KrysaBelial
Hey
Wow, that's quite a story to tell, thank you for sharing. I know that it can be very hard to get on to the right track, very hard, but you are not alone, there are people here and there all with and for you. If it gets much harder maybe confide in someone trained to help. I wish you the best of love luck and safety. I appreciate your openness, take good care.
