I can’t remember another way
im 22 years old in aus, I started as a good kid with a bit of a rough start but was always raised to at least be kind, it hated my father growing up and no longer see him. I have had severe mental struggles for as long as I can remember and I’ve never revealed my emotions to anyone because I never wanted to seem like I wanted attention or to put people out.
I’ve always had a lot of friends despite my anxiety and my self loathing I can’t shake. I started using drugs at 15 and started drinking alot and I loved it, quickly it became the thing I looked forward to most, started skipping school to see my girlfriend and smoke weed I didn’t even care anymore, I’ve worked my way up over the years to the point I use ice everyday. I’ve become cold to life a don’t feel joy like I used to and everyday is starting to feel like a dream, and I distance myself more and more from everything except work, which is what inspired me to start using meth as it illuminates fatigue and makes me more focused. I know I need to stop but I kinda just don’t want too
@C4mR0N
Hi C4mRON.
I hope for you that you start to be sober soon, maybe with the help of your doctor.
Thanks for sharing your experience.
Hope you will find the power to stop using it one day ( if you want of course ). Writing here is a good step I think.
Try maybe to reduce your consuption first ? To find new activities / hobbies / substances ? New relations / lifestyle may sometimes help too.
Peace
Thanks for sharing I know how hard that is
ice is exactly that…a means of freezing one’s soul and in turn loosing sight of all else; stuck yet somehow feel this is better.
keep brave and strong you can fight this…. Melt and trust the waves will lead you to where awaits
Trust me it so much scarier the journey of ice than without. I am so sorry for your pain and experiences but it will be okay, you have support and are so strong to even be reaching out. Things can only get better but you have to give it that chance and while you can escape something so evil please fight. You can do this and you owe it to yourself to let life be all that is amazing and give you all you deserve.
