Ahhhhhh

Please support if can am waking a dangerous line

Ex didn’t go to gaol and we still emailing

it brings everything back up I get obsessive and affected by all he says or doesn’t say. He wants to see me….

Probably, most definitely, for money or control/satisfaction.

I have kept away from him for 3 years almost to the day which is kinda weird. I read into things that happen like this.

I will use meth, him and using are combined.

im scared that I am so tempted…after everything I’ve been through to get self to point am at now.

Want him to want to see me

I am leading him on but then am I? I do want to see him so I am not lying in what I say.

Im scared… I always get hurt when I see him, physically and mentally and risk everything.

He is on and off with another girl who more or less he cheated on me with. I hate she in the past is the focus and most important. He is probably with her now which is why no reply’s to emails. It is probably a game.

Why am I so drawn to this….

I have had last week off work since we have been emailing as it has consumed me and my headspace.

I have to go to work.

Wanted so much to head to him. Still do. It’s this overwhelming sensation taking over.