Relapsed again
Im ashamed of myself right now. Every thing in my life is falling apart. I go a week or two without drinking but then i relapse. I put all my effort in fixng my wrong. And when im so close i create more. I keep hurting everything i love. I need a change.
@thoughtfulBike6901 *hugs if you are okay with it* Hi Bike, welcome to the community; we are happy to have you here with us. I'm so sorry to hear about the relapse; it can really tear us apart and make the future seem bleak. I realize this is a difficult time for you. However, you don't have to struggle alone. Relapse happens quite often, and it does not define who you are, or who you will be. How are you coping? We are here for you, so if you ever need to talk with someone, the listeners are here available at any time.
If you have any concerns or questions, let us know. Best wishes; I have faith you will be alright. :)
@lovelyWhisper66I
Ive been hiding from everyone since saturday. My stomach hurts when i think how i acted. I just wish it would leave. I didnt go to work cause i felt to ahamed to see anybody. I wish i could jump back in time and redo parts of my life right now. Im finished drinking. I just want to be ok im tired of dissapointing my love ones and myself. I know my partners going to leave me i hope i can change before she dooes. These are my thoughts that are eating away at me and holding me down. Just exhausted of dissapointing myself nobody feels how i feel right now.
@thoughtfulBike6901 I know exactly how how you feel. I could have written those same words as I'm feeling them right now too.
@thoughtfulBike6901
Im really sorry that your addiction has made you so miserable. However, Im glad that you are finally done. You are stronger than you know and I believe in you. If you ever need to talk I am here.
@thoughtfulBike6901 Don't feel discouraged. Keep talking about it, if you need someone to speak to I'm always here.
And hey, at least you are conscious about where mistakes are being made, perhaps you're half way to the cure. Things will get better, just believe it :-)
@PowerofNow247 that is the problem i know where i need to change but i keep falling. I want to change.
@thoughtfulBike6901 I know how you feel!! I struggle with drinking and i do good for awhile but I feel like I have this self destructive side or something cause it's like hey I'm doing good so let's just f it all up!! But I'm almost 30 days sober again and I'm going to try my best to make it to 60 which will be the first time since I've gotten out of rehab cause every time I've made it to 30 I go and mess it up but not this time!! I'm taking life one day at a time!! And for me prayer helps a lot too!! You got this!! Pick yourself back up, we all make mistakes and no one is perfect my friend no matter how it seems!! I know the struggle of beating yourself up over drinking, mistakes, etc but the only way to move forward is to forgive your self!! Its ok!! Today is a new day!!
My girls about to leave me and i feel terrible need some help right now
@thoughtfulBike6901
Im sorry that your girl is about to leave you. Have you tried talking to her about how you feel. Where is she going? How long will she be gone? Is she coming back? Im always here to talk and going through someone leaving is never easy.
I know the feeling of relapsing i have done it many times and its normal to think about it in a bad way
what i learnt when i was recovering i was told to think of the positive. how many days did you go without drinking?
our brains always think about the negative first and not how well we have been doing, you are doing so well!
Yes you relpased but thats only ONE day Think of the many days you have been going strong.
stay positive mate If you ever need to have a chat please send a message through ill be more then happy to listen
All the best
Peter :)
