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I'm tired of this cycle

feels13 April 6th, 2021

Hello Folks. I have a tendency to go through periods where I believe I can drink without ramifications. I keep ending up incorrect about that. I keep doing something that could completely ruin or end my life. I don't seem to see the consequences of my drinking until its to late. I continue to use but want to stop. I am not currently drinking to get drunk but drink more than I'd like to. Currently trying to stop. Just venting... thanks y'all

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tidyMango5261 April 6th, 2021

I feel your pain I’m the same

Dannyphantom696 April 6th, 2021

Hey bud It’s important if you want to stop to start taking small steps towards your goal. I’ve been clean off of heroin for 4 years and what I did to get off of it was remain positive about my self and my addiction Never give up and always try again and eventually you’ll get it

feels13 OP April 7th, 2021

I am so negative about myself its insane. I am negative in about all aspects of life. The only thing I am confident in is work. I make myself into a hero to try to overcome my short comings of regular life where I struggle the most.

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jrob77 May 8th, 2021

@feels13

I can relate to feeling negative about myself. I am extremely self-critical even to the point of audible profane verbal abuse of myself (when I am alone). I used to struggle with physical self-harm but now the negativity is emotional, mental, and verbal. Drinking numbs the self-criticism short term but then makes everything worse long term when I feel guilty and am even more self-critical. It takes practice to see the long term consequences of our decisions and I am still struggling and learning. I wish you the best.

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andnat2020 May 9th, 2021

I totally feel you. I also convince myself that I don’t really have a problem with stopping but the truth is that I do.