I keep saying I will stop but I don
I know I want to but that moment when it all goes away and those worries leave I hate when it all comes back and the side effects of it I sorted to it as a form of escape and o hate the empty promises I make to people that I will stop I just don't want anyone to care because even though it hurts when ppl don't it's easier in a way
@Julia27LockRuby100314
Do other people feel like this if you've got similar stories or outlooks on substance abuse or other things you can always share it's a safe space lol it's your choice though just know your not alone no matter what
@Julia27LockRuby100314 I do feel like this. For a while I was doing pretty well at learning what was happening in my head, and dealing with all the depressing guilt of drinking, being a bad person when I'm drinking, lying about drinking. These are all things I know for a fact support groups and therapists can help me with. But, I always have excuses for why I'm too busy for it. I feel like I've lost so many things from it, but the addiction is something you can't beat on your own.
@dynamicCoconut1432 I get that It can feel like you've lost people's trust too in a way with lying and putting off getting help because it's easier not too also the idea of being in a support group for a bad thing like it can be overwhelming like the realisation of the addiction and I get the guilt, like some things you say you don't mean or things you say that you don't mean and not remembering but still remembering some things, just know that it isn't you it's not a part of you it's an addiction and something you can beat like you said it takes time and recovery and going sober can be just a lot, the guilt can lead to more drinking for me to get rid of me of the guilt in a way but it's just an endless cycle. It isn't a completely controllable thing so you shouldn't feel guilty for something that's so difficult and can be a coping mechanism for even more difficult things, but you need to remove your a strong person and you can learn to get it under control and you can go back to learning what's happening in your head it can really suck all the things but keep going:) it will get easier
