Actually trying
It's nearly 4am again. I haven't had a good night in months. I have to somehow go to work today and function and I can already predict the breakdown in the late afternoon, but I need to stop the drinking cycle. It's never going to get easier. My parents are never going to support me in the way I need to be supported, but I have 1 friend and 2 apps and soon a psychiatrist and a therapist on my side. If things take a bad turn- and they will- I won't be completely alone. 1 day at a time. I'm scared to try to get sober while I'm also working a stressful job, but I need to. If I need days off or I need a longer break for the psychward or rehab or even if I need to quit, fine. Cleaning up my mental health has to come first. I'm not going to let my life continue to be like this and I'm not going to let myself commit suicide. Damn, I'm really tired. And scared. Pray for me, please.
@determinedSea4370 I'm very sorry that you feel like this. I understand how difficult it is, and with all that, working a stressful job. It is hard, but you can go through this. Take care of yourself, of your well-being, that is most important. You're not alone in this, I'll pray that everything will be alright ♡
@helianthus19 Thank you. It's silly, but getting the validation of a reply this time when I posted here again does make me feel a bit better. I'm on another get sober app too and there were replies to me, but one of them confused me. and scared me. I'm kind of out of my mind on almost no sleep for days now, so could you tell me: did i say anything in my post that makes you think i need medical intervention or i could wind up in jail?? I'm already exhausted and so anxious that I feel sick and I need someone else to help me make sense of that.
Jail? Definetly not. There is no reason for that. And medical intervention? I don't think about that either. Neither one of that even crossed my mind.
The only possibly thing to me, is that your psychiatric may give you some medications, and that is absolutetly fine. Medications are truly helpful things and they helped a lot of people. There is nothing to worry about that.
Take care of yourself, even in this stressful times. ♡
@helianthus19 Thank you. I can't think straight rn and I needed that.