i feel like i’ve ruined my life(academically)
i’m a 4th year medical student i have been the top of my class since the first grade till mdcat (entrance exam which decides which clg you’ll go to) and i *** up i felt so much pressure that what if i don’t make it what if i try and don’t make it so with that fear i didn’t study at all it was 2020 covid lockdown i was severely depressed and then something happened to me which broke me completely and as expected i didn’t do good on my test few students who i used to compete with and who were usually behind me in school and college got into really great colleges i wanted to take a gap year but my parents forced me to take admission in a medical clg near us moving on for the first year i hardly studied in second year i did some better in third year things got better again i was on top of the class again but i feel so bad studying now or doing good now i think to myself you didn’t do good on the entrance exam why are you doing good now if you had studied good then there won’t be so many problems also my studies cost a lot now i’m in a private clg and it’s taken a toll on my parents finances i feel so bad for them and so guilty i have my final exams for 4th year in a month i did good in preliminary exams but i can’t get rid of this guilt
@famafam513
Hello fam!😃👋 Thank you for sharing it with all of us and for reaching out for help! It takes immense courage to share your struggles and I am proud of you!🌟 I can sense the weight of emotions and self-doubt in your words. It's clear that you've faced significant challenges, from the pressure to perform to dealing with depression and personal struggles. The fact that you're still pushing forward and finding ways to succeed despite these obstacles is truly admirable.🌟 Remember that everyone's journey is unique, and comparisons can be unfair to ourselves. It's okay to acknowledge your feelings of guilt and regret, but try not to let them define your present and future, and this is really important in your journey! I can sense your concern for your parents' sacrifices, and that's beautiful. It's amazing that they've supported you this far, and it's understandable that you want to make them proud. Mostly all of us wishes the same.💖
Here's a thought: you can use this feeling of guilt and think of it as motivation to succeed. By working hard and achieving your goals, you can, in a way, pay tribute to your parents' sacrifices. Who knows, maybe one day you'll be able to repay them or support them in ways that bring you both joy.🌟 You've made it to your 4th year of medical school, and that's something to be proud of! Don't forget to take care of yourself and celebrate your small wins, especially with your final exams approaching.
Remember that you're not alone in this feeling, we are here for you! Many students face similar struggles, and it's okay to ask for help when you need it. Be kind to yourself and acknowledge your strengths.🌸 You got this!💖 I am rooting for you😃 Sending you lots of best wishes, positive energy, and warm hugs🤗💖
thank you so much your words mean a lot ❤️❤️❤️
@famafam513 Aww, you are very welcome!💕 So happy for you🤗💖 Remember, I'm always here, rooting for you!🌟
