I'm worried about my future.

I had just finished my junior years, now incoming senior year. I'm okay with the new school I'm going for currently, but what I'm anxious about is where I'm spending my college years. I've been overhearing my mother talking about spending my tertiary level of education here in the place where I lived all my life, But my plans are different. I wanted to get out of my comfort zone and study in Canada, learning how to live independently. Unfortunately, my mom doesn't trust me about being independent and want me to be kept here in my country under their roof. I was really worried that I might lose my chance with continuing my studies in another country, I am losing the hope of fulfilling my dream. As much as I want to, it seems impossible to me. Reasons would be me being too irresponsible and stupid to try new things and doing what I ought to do. my parents, especially my mother, seems like she doesn't believe in me; keeps calling me words that makes me lose my self-esteem, and that keeps me discouraged. What should I do? :((