"I'm just a Teenage dirtbag baby"

hey everybody! 

ahh how do I even start? I'm just a disappointment lol my parents have literally given up on me and so have I, whenever I try to study or even think that I want to, my parents just demotivate the heck out of me! Their words pierce right through me and it's an everyday affair at this point. At this point I feel like they get this sadistic pleasure after they insult me, they are not good parents. I cannot stress enough on how I have been wanting to just perish for these past couple of months, I just want to get out from their sight so they don't pick on me anymore, I have felt so hopeless that this is literally my last resort, sharing my most traumatic experiences on the internet lol yes, that's the level of helplessness i have achieved...hooray! Lol