Introduction (TW)

Hi, I'm feraljane and I'm new to 7cups.

I'm recovering from self-harm and have been clean for a bit over a month. However I've hardly ever done in the last couple of years. So a couple of years ago I briefly became the only caregiver for my then boyfriend, who was at the time going through a psychotic episode. In that state he'd sometimes make cruel comments about my self-harm. He's the only person I've ever told about it. Strangely enough, since then I don't feel like self-harm soothes me as much as it used to. I was even angry at him at one point for 'ruining' self-harm for me. I started when I was about 14, and I'm turning 34 this weekend. So, it's a tough habit to break after so long doing it. Ocassionally I still feel the urges, and today is one of those days.

I'm not going to do it, though. Instead, I'm just going to go to bed. I'm glad I've found 7cups and hope to be here to help anyone who needs it, just as folks have been kind and helpful to me the couple of days I've been on this site.