The hardest thing
I've been months clean, yes I've had ups and downs but it all seemed so easy. Now I start thinking, and I know I won't feel better but I also know it will help for a minute. Even if it's 30 seconds I feel that I need them. I really don't know what to do...
@WhiteRhino333
Hi there,
First of all, congrats on being clean for months :) You've pointed something out in your post that's very true : you might feel better now but it won't last. I'm sorry to hear that you're having a hard time at the moment. I find that distracting myself with something else helps while waiting for the urge to pass, maybe that's something you could do. Or finding an alternative such as drawing on yourself, rubbing ice, etc. Is there something that has triggered you ? If so, maybe you would like to talk about it .. ?
Remember that hard times never last forever !
Sending positive thoughts and hugs,
Siz
@Slizzy564 Hi, thanks so much for ur message. I needed it just at that moment. Right now I'm really fighting the urge to just cry and hurt myself. Im doing it because I'm a selfish person and it helps me take my mind off what I have done wronge. And I feel I can never do anything right😣 My heads pounding and I feel so alone and I know no one cares no matter what I do. Sorry I'm ranting but thanks for replying
@WhiteRhino333
You're welcome, feel free to rant all you want ! That's kinda the whole point of these posts :)
If you want to cry, just cry. Let the emotions out. They'll always be better out than in:) There is no point trying to stop yourself from feeling emotions, you're human it's only natural !
About being selfish, at some point everyone needs to take care of themselves. How would you do that without thinking of yourself ? And maybe by hurting yourself you'll take your mind off your worries. But just so you know, everyone has made mistakes and try as much as you want you can't go back in time to change them. Sometimes you need to move on. I'm not saying to forget about your mistakes but maybe focus on the lessons you can learn from them :)
And guess what ? I never do anything right so that makes two of us :)
I understand that you feel lonely and that nobody cares but hey i care ! I hope you overcome these hard times and if need be you can always vent to me :)
Sending big hugs :)