Well I got demoted

It happened at last. I slap.ped myself today.

When I heard they talked mean behind my back I felt like slapping them. Today I slap.ped myself.

My classmate 10 years ago said he felt like slapping me because I said "What's wrong with this class? Why does everyone hate it?" Just out of curiosity. What's sad is that I still continued to have a nice relationship with him, even a few days back I was nice to him.

So he won. I did it to myself today.

I've been working hard on managing emotions, but I did something that I thought I would never do. I don't know if I'm being whiny, because a lot of people go through worse. It's scaring me, because what if I do something even worse. I have thoughts of worse.