Relapse?
I’ve not really hurt myself for about 5 years now but I the past few weeks I’ve found myself not stopping myself from getting everyday injuries and look forward to it when I do. A couple of times now I’ve “accidentally” knocked the knife I use to open boxes etc and have then spent the next week stopping it from healing properly rather than helping it. Last week I actively cut my palm knowing it would just keep reopening without me having to mess with it. I feel like I’m going backwards again but I don’t know what to do?
Hi @straightforwardLemon1654
I'm so sorry to read about the relapse... What had worked for you before to eliminate the urge?
What feelings created when you see the wound or when you feel the pain?
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Hi @ouiCherie I’m not really sure. I tried all sorts of things but nothing really got rid of the urge. The only reason I stopped was because of the way it made other people feel I think. Relief mainly. It’s the one time everything is quiet and calm in my mind. The sight of my own blood now makes me a bit dizzy and faint but even so it makes me feel like I’ve done something right. I’m not sure any of those makes sense, it’s quite difficult to put into words.
