60 years old

@amusingTiger7822

hey how are you doing today 

@amusingTiger7822 oh damn, i'm so sorry that you've fallen into this trap. I'm stuck here too, just 30 years younger, but honestly what's the point of characterizing ourselves with our ages when we're both numb, self-destructing, and probably dealing with grief, regrets, some level of trauma, and a load of loneliness. self harm isn't just a drama emo thing for teenagers like in stereotypes. is there any way to throw away your sharps or keep them away from easy access? is there any place or room you can escape to so you cannot cut? do you have any engaging distractions- phone, coloring book, pet, a porch swing? i'm glad you're reaching out.

1. @amusingTiger7822

TRIGGER WARNING

Hi, you're still a young man! I celebrated with my neighbor today, it was her 85th birthday. So that's like getting a second chance. I was a cutter and my scars are my reminder of a period of time from 2005 - 2009, but then 7 years later I suffered ideation (the urge to making a plan), and depression, PTSD, and I was fully manic and had ideation. I felt like I painted myself into a corner, I had 1,684 returnable beer cans in my closet all packed nicely in the original 30 Packs. When I returned them I got back $84.20

I finally called a veteran's crisis number and after several days manic with ideation. (I hid my where-a-bouts by using talk-atone an untraceable number). They convinced me and they called ahead to the hospital emergency room, and that's where I began to understand that my symptoms were from past childhood trauma combined with being in a war (1982) and also being shot-at (5-6 shots) by my step dad (1981). Now I come to 7Cups almost every day and chat with people. This website was a great place fro you to reach out. I suggest you trying out several or more Listeners on 7Cups until you find a couple solid connections or mentors sort of speak. I hear "Thank you for your service" often, a few times a year! I never heard that from my release date in 1983, until about 5 years ago. I never told anybody is the main reason. Please remember that these people are there to help us in any crisis, and feelings of self harm is in crisis. I noticed after a few calls and a few different people at different times of the day that I was starting to realize my triggers are many. And it requires medical attention to help us learn how to process the things in the world you may be disappointed in. I have to go right now. Please do self care!! Call them very caring sweet people on a crisis phone line. Chin up - It gets way better

Blessings, Day