im back :/

it’s not like i was doing better in that short break from cups but i really hate being here. i just panicked and went back to this site and ill probably deactivate my account again after this.

i got a new tool. it’s coming in the mail. :/

also it’s my birthday tomorrow, ill be 17. nothing seemed different with the new year, nothing seems different now with my bday. i kept myself from crying probably a dozen times at least, not exaggerating.. i started crying, and i stopped myself over and over because people were around. finally, it’s the end of the day, and i can just let it out.

i know no one cares and no one will probably read this so idk why im posting this anyways