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I’m an older lady. I have just started to sh in different ways. I’m doing things that are more visible. I made people mad doing things that were less visible. I still can’t do anything that’s too dangerous. I have so many responsibilities, kids. But I feel I can be fixed by being punished. Been holding back so long but starting to do little cuts. Everyone in my life thinks I’m letting them down so bad. I’m trying so hard to be a good person. I want them to see, but they’ll never see. It’s been so long, they won’t see. Doing some action makes me feel like I’m doing something.
@PiecesOfWhoeverIWas This must have been difficult to talk about but I'm glad that you are talking about it, your emotions and feelings deserve to be expressed and heard. There's so much that you are holding up, it's understandable to feel like you're being crushed under the weight.
Sometimes people don't know how to express their concerns and it can often come out as anger, I hope the people in your life get a bit more supportive and understand how much you're trying. You are a human too, you can't always be what people want you to be, we slip and fall many times but we get back up as well. You're already doing so much, you are considerate, you are caring, even in your lows you think about the feelings of others, you are doing your best for your kids<3
I hope you find alternate ways and activities that help you feel more in control of your life. You are a precious being, you don't deserve to be punished. You deserve to be understood and loved.
@BlueDarkAurora Hi Aurora. ❤️ You have sent me several beautiful posts. I remember your name. You are a truly awesome soul. You fly around spreading goodness everywhere here. Thank you. Thank you for seeing this, and for responding to me again with words that bring tears to me. You are the sort of person I wish I knew in my life. I don’t know what else to say, except I hope you are doing ok.
@PiecesOfWhoeverIWas Hello :) I'm okay and so much better now after reading your reply<3 Know that somewhere far away you've made a heart smile with your kindness. 
