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I love and hate my scars

User Profile: LostInnull
LostInnull March 10th, 2023

when I look at my leg and see my scars I feel great. Like “Wow this so cool” I know this isn’t healthy but I love them and want more but I somehow also hate them? Maybe because a close friend really worries about me so I feel guilty about them or maybe something else but it’s confusing

Does anyone relate?

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User Profile: jackjackjac
jackjackjac March 11th, 2023

@LostInnull i personally have a scar on my face. even though its not easy to notice, i just live with it

User Profile: Pici
Pici April 30th, 2023

I can sadly relate to this

User Profile: sooty41
sooty41 April 30th, 2023

@LostInnull

I am so glad that you have a close friend who cares about you and i am sure that many other people do to. Scars can be a hard thing to come to terms with. I have self harmed for almost 40 years...oh that sounds shocking. And all of my life i have kept them covered. Luckily most of them are on my legs and easily hidden. I have always been careful and aware that i need to cover them up.

When my soulmate died i lost all perspective and my arm bears the brunt of it. Last year i sweated through the summer covered up in long sleeves. And then i suddenly realised it is nobody else's business. I maybe a patchwork quilt of scars but i am not going to hide anymore.

My only concern for you and my sincere hope for you, is that you can stop punishing yourself and hurting yourself. It has taken me a long time to learn this, please don't wait as long as i did before i understood that hurting myself was also corroding my soul. Honestly, it isn't the visible scars but the hidden ones that need loved and healed. Please know that you are so much more than your scars and your pain. Know that you are loved for simply being you, you are enough. Sending lots of love xxx

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User Profile: LostInnull
LostInnull OP September 26th, 2023

A little late (sorry)

But thank you so much for saying this I’ve been better actually! Not therapy better but like a little better then before

I sh less now ! I’ve gone a month without it rn and it’s great

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