I had an attempt... And I'm not sure how to express it to close ones
I had a discussion with my mother because I didn't do all what she told me to in the kitchen, and she said strong words to me. My father came in and I felt even more ashamed. Every thing I was doing was worse each time. So I finally went to my room, grabbed a pen and painted in my arm strongly (instead of using a harmful tool because I have a personal law about avoiding self-harm as much as I can). I told my friends but I still unsure how to tell my mother. I don't want to unnecessarily bother her or make her feel guilty. She doesn't seem to feel bad for her earlier behavior with me, although I've apologized for my negligence.
How should I tell her?
@Politonno
I think you should sit down with her and have a discussion about your feelings.... perhaps enlist her help so you do not take criticism so badly or work on your relationship perhaps she also has work to do to learn to communicate with you in a better way.
While you are waiting for her to feel bad about what happened have you considered she did not view the whole interaction like you did. in the end if you want a better relationship and you do not want to feel bad for every time you have a difficult interaction and then feel the need to punish yourself you need to talk it out.