Hey @passionateCat1919
I know you're really hurting right now, and I just want to say that there are a lot of people out there who really are on your side. The thing is, you're going to have to take the first step to trust an adult, possibly someone at your school. I'm guessing your school has some sort of school counselor. Or even if you have a favorite teacher... you don't have to give that person any details at all, just tell them that you need someone safe to talk to and I hope they would help direct you to the right person.
I know that's scary as heck, but it also may be a lifeline, to have someone you can trust, that you can talk to. There really are a lot of people who would love to help you.
Being hurt and abused is NOT your fault. You also always need to remember that.
💗