hate myself

Falling to pieces one by one

Nobody sees how I’m holding on

Some tiny thread that’s bound to break

I can still feel my body ache

Told them once, but they don’t want to listen

Not sick enough for my mental condition

You can’t tell but I need a physician

Sometimes I even hate myself

Tired of keeping up the part

Unbearable feeling, falling apart

Nightmares they creep up in my head

Can’t get a one night’s rest in bed

Slit my wrist to drown out all my feelings

I can’t trust, everyone’s always leaving

Say I’m fine but I can be deceiving

Sometimes I even hate myself

Battlefield on my skin, you don’t get it

Everytime that I cut I regret it

Feel relief though I don’t recommend it

Sometimes I even hate myself

Leave me all alone with my own mind

Tired all the time cause I disguise

All of my own pain I hold inside

Trying not to show my own poison

Paint my face 'cause the real me is pointless

Do my nails, just to rip me to pieces

Lose my mind 'cause I don't wanna keep it

Sometimes I even hate myself