@Lg32 Hi Luis. ♡ Nice to meet you. Your post makes perfect sense. It is so unfortunate that you do not have the best of self esteem. The good thing is that there is always hope and with hard work, you can change how you feel about you. I know it may not seem like it now but won't you give a chance? Maybe try looking in mirror and tell yourself 3 things you like about you. It can be something physically about you or just a quality that you possess. Focus on the things you even half way like about you. And before you say nothing, just think about something that you would like in a different person that you may have within you too. Baby steps, you know? You can also do positive affirmations and speak kind words to yourself and build yourself up. It won't happen over night but you can learn to like and love yourself. You are stuck with yourself. I hope you find something that works for you, Luis. I bet you are a person with many wonderful qualities. It's just a matter of discovering it. ♡ You deserve to be happy. I hope your mental health and self esteem improve over time and that the real amazing Luis is able to come out and be free. Take care.