Introduction + Current fights with my mom is bringing my self-esteem down and I'm back to SH

"Every Child deserves a parent, but not every parent deserves a child." -???

Hi. I'm Nate. 13 years old, and you can use all pronouns on me.

I'm not feeling the best today, what is the reason for that? Well, from the title lets guess, in a non-sarcastic way. 

That's right, you read the title. 

Lets begin. 

Ever since my uncle had visited us, its been maybe 2 months, I can definitely see a change within her. before my uncle came, she didn't yell nor physically hurt me. guess what shes doing right now? those. shes been going on my phone a lot more too and I feel like its been a weeks worth of how much she scolded me and physically hurt me.

worst of all, I swear shes degraded me with some of the things she's said. one of the things she said to me "all because that photo got out, now kids won't want to be friends with you and I understand why. because your nasty." just caught me entirely off guard. the photo shes referring to was an old photo of myself from 2 months ago that was seen by maybe 40 out of 108 kids in my grade, they all forgot about it. she's acting like i'm a shame and an embarrassment, in fact its what she told me when she found out that photo was spread around my grade. it wasn't anyone's fault, nor to the first two people who seen it. 

she's never stood with me in this situation, even if it wasn't my fault. and it wasn't. 

I found myself doing SH again 3 hours after she'd scolded me in the car on the way to school.