overpowering feeling of pain

Every day in his eyes everything is so perfect everything is great .How can it be so great if you tore me down treated me like I was some game .how can it be so perfect when behind closed doors you would talk about me in a way that I was a dog or worse .you would call me Fat Ugly Disgusting OLD pig a Loser a Bitch but funny you would want something than all of a sudden "I am yours again" ..guess its me cause I just don't get it at all .if you love someone "you don't Lie, Cheat Flirt with other girls ,or show disrespect or make the person feel disgraced .to love someone you must show tthem.actions speak louder than untrue words