is it love!
i never have any relation with anyone before. ao he is basically my first one. who made me feel loved. when we got married i got to know that he was cheating on my during our engagement time which last one year. it was long distance. he didnt tell me anything before we got married after marraige he told me everything. he say sorry to me and ask for forgivness. i do forgive him but i am unable to forget. we are living together. its been 4 years we have a baby together. he told me he loves me but deep down in my heart i always feel that he never loved me. he marry me because of other reasons. but its all in my mind. i dont have amy proof. he said and claim otherwise. after marraige he never cheated on me. but its hard for me to trust him again. plus his love is like seasons.... some day he was soo good to me and other day he just feel so distant. i am not sure. is this love?
Thanks for sharing, it sounds like you've had a difficult time. It sounds like the cheating has raised your suspicions and you harbour some fears over it happening again. Weather you choose to stay with him, if he is faithful or not, it's the fear you have that you need to overcome for yourself. The fear you have is like a toxin that will make you feel low. I get alot of fears like that and find that counciling and anxiety excercises help, 7 cups have some recorded excercises that might be a good place to start :)