Sorry I'm new and all
So hi, I'm kpopcat2020, I've been going through a lot of issues lately and I need some help and clarification.
I liked this one guy like instantly at my new school cause he was popular, sorta smart, good-looking, and sorta kind, too. We were assigned to work on a project together like in November and we got the highest grade, did amazing, and became sorta-friends. I was crushing on him for a while, and there were certain ways he'd act around certain people. He would be all bad-boy with his friends and then sorta-nice to close friends and me I guess.
I'd been crushing on him for a while, but I knew it wasn't gonna work out. He asked out one of his closer friends and my best friend. I was shocked at first, but we made up and are good friends now. They're still dating and they are so cute together.
Now I really like my BGF(best guy friend) and he doesn't like me back. He kept me and my BFF guessing who his crush was at this school, and we found out that it's not me. He likes a nonbinary person at another school who he sees once a month, which is a huge shocker. He and I are such good friends, I don't wanna ruin our friendship and make it awkward by telling him I like him cause I know he doesn't like me back.
But it's torture cause we have 5 classes together and I see him every day and I feel so sad cause we can't be together. IDK how I am going to get over him and still be his friend.
To make it even worse, I broke down during math cause I didn't get any questions right during our practice. And he saw but didn't say anything. if he were my BGF, wouldn't he do something or help me, cause my BFF isn't in the class to help me?
Recently, my 2 seperate crushes have been combining into my life and I don't like it. My original crush's gf is talking to me a lot about their date this weekend and his best friend is at the bus stop(he moved in my neighborhood a while ago). But my new crush's friends, and his ex, are at the bus stop too, and my BFF is kinda spending more time with him than she is with me.
Any ideas how to work with this?
(Sorry, ik that was long but I have lots of history with crushes)
-kpopcat2020