Sad and confused
So a guy that I used to date has a new girlfriend and I saw pictures of them together in a place that I had always ask him to take me. but he is a player and I told him that I don't want to fool around with him while he has a new girlfriend and his answer was they are not that close. well I don't believe it and I think that because I'm not sleeping with him he's backing off. so he's come to town about a week he called me on the way to the States,called me when he got to the states and now he says he's sick which he is but I I asked him so are we going to get together while you're here and he said will you know I have to look at my calendar . he never used to say something like that like before he couldn't wait to see me and it just makes me sad that he doesn't want to see me anymore not so much romantically but he is the closest thing I have to a good friend and I don't have a lot of friends. I try everything but I've talked to my therapist about it and she agreed I am doing the best I can and not easy. Sometimes I just feel like it's too much of an effort to try when nothing comes of it and it just keeps me from going out at all
You are a beautiful girl who deserves someone who will keep her heart safe. This boy is not worthy of it. You will find someone who is and I know it sounds mad cliche but the bad guys make us appreciate the good guys even more. You don't deserve to feel like this sweetheart but it will get better.
On the plus side you'll be able to spot a bad egg a mile off. Let yourself heal properly! No point rushing and bumping into another fool. You are incredible person Dancesoul 
and you have so much to offer this big world. Don't let anyone make you question your worth ever. You are excellent.
Surround yourself with people that bring ou the very best in you, that make you feel like the very best in you, that make you feel like the very best version of you- that make you so happy + make you feel safe. Those are the keepers!
Know that you are capable of anything, that no mater what obstacles are put in your way- you are powerful + so much stronger than you will ever realise. Always believe you can change the world because every little bit of change needed someone to believe they could do it. Never let someone shrink that beautiful heart of yours dear.
@Blessedboy
thank you so much I am sorry I was delayed in thanking you. Your heartfelt answer was appreciated and I am working on this
God bless