My first and last goodbye

To the one that was mine.

I guess I never got to write you anything. I was never a writer either and I acknowledge the fact how bad I suck at this. You wrote me many goodbyes and I did not write a single one for you. I was always so afraid of you not being here one day that I didn't want to make it any more real than it already was. You know, I got my life together somehow. I got into the school we were both talking about, the milestone that would change that world to a better place. The world we bult. I succeeded to find my happines and peace. I found this awesome guy that makes me happy and I am able to see my future again and something to actually look forward to.

I hope you are okay wherever you are. I don't hear your voice anymore in my sleep nor your breath next to me, which I sometimes think of. We got many bad times too remember? Many fights, so many used tears and yells. There was so much bad, I know and I can't seem to still understand why it all went the way it did but I found my peace with that also. You were my universe. My partner in crime. We would talk how we would conquer the moon together and be the king and queen ruling a new world from the castle we built by hand.

I lost my universe, my partner in crime, my bestfriend and my lover.

I didn't forget you.

-The one that used to be yours.