Losing hope, struggling with being single. (Trigger warning maybe?)
I've been single for sometime. It's complex. My broken heart issue has seen to it that when things get bad I feel clearly my heart getting weaker. It's like it is beginning to compound everything. Making work more stressful, making the hollowness of online dating frustrating, making the negative desires more clear more rampant. I ultimately feel like there is no one. I know this isn't the case. It's been so long that I had someone beside me. Someone in flesh and bone who could profess love for and of me. There are nights it makes me wish to go on my walk and never return. To vanish, to be lost if not more. I feel so alone that I can't even control myself sometimes. I've even thought of going alone to bars in hopes of getting hit on unlikely and dangerous as that is. My chest hurts. My head hurts. And inside I'm crying.
@perpetualfear it's not dangerous to go to bars alone as long as your careful. i met my last boyfriend that way! ya never know.
@perpetualfear sorry your struggling this much i am not sure what to really suggest but maybe try meet up groups to meet like minded people or maybe try consueling so you can learn to cope better and not rely on dating to mask your lonelniess.
@perpetualfear
It sounds like you're tired of staying single and you need someone to be there with you. I totally understand what you're feeling. We all crave love and attention and we try to seek it at all possible times and when we don't get it for a long period, it starts to have a negative impact on our daily lives.
I understand going to bars alone can be dangerous. You're not wrong about that and indeed, online dating can be very shallow at times.
I'm sure there's someone out there for you. It just takes a little time to find them, just take it one day at a time, my friend. I hope that you find someone soon enough.
You're not alone, we're here for you whenever you feel lonely :)
Best wishes and good luck!