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Hello guys how are ya?

So that's a silly title I know!

But whatevs

So I know this guy since 2010 but I don't really know KNOW him because we were not talking back then when we were in school. For 2 years, everyday in the same classroom.

Anyway.

We were talking a bit, not much. He was a very shy guy. I thought he liked me because he was shy around me. But I general also shy. Anyway. Back then it was a little joking around, talking about classes and teachers normal stuff. At the time I was in love with Jim. But we are now talking about George.

So George used to text me a few times after we graduated and he was asking me out for a coffee. Back then I didn't eve want to go out with him because I was so shy. I was feeling that's he was hitting on me and I was feeling awkward. By the time I said yes, he took it back and said that he was busy with work.

I then had a relationship with a guy, unfortunately not Jim, and that was the last time I saw George, or I thought so,.... He saw me with my boyfriend at that time, and I was so happy when I saw him I said hello and raised my arm for him to see me but he saw me and never said hello. Then I was feeling super sad. Note that he saw me holfing hands with my ex so maybe he felt awkward. This was back in 2012.

Fast forward to 2015. I sent to George to see how he is doing.... So many years later. I know. So disconnected from everyone because I quit social media in 2014. I broke up with my bf in 2013 and texted George 2015. Now thats a huge time gap. We only said hello that's it. Lol I don't know why.

I didn't even know how George was doing or even if he was alive so to speak. No contact with him for so many years.

Fast forward July 2018. I saw George in the bus. It was absolutely shocking. I haven't seen him for ages and ages. He told me that's been many years that he moved out of the country. He asked for my number even though we live in different countries lol. He asked me out for a coffee. Now that was a nice... Wonderful night to remember. Think about it. A person that you had nice feelings for, no contact with, you somehow see him sitting on a bus chair......

Im sure he saw me because I was outside of the bus first I was talki g with a friend and waiting for the bus to start the engine. Then I went inside and I saw him. He was looking so different but good. I don't know if he saw me but I feel he did. He absolutely did. I took the courage and went and said hello to him. We were talking the whole time and as I said he asked for my number and he asked me out.

Then fast forward two days later he came and took me with his car, he insisted to because I was about to take the bus, i thought oh how gentleman. He paid for my drinks I mean it was pretty amazing. I felt uncomfortable though because I was starting to sense that George wasn't going friendly. Lol but then okay I tried to pay for him too. An ice cream or whatever. That day we were together for 6 hours. Walking most of the time. When it was late he drove me to my home and said goodnight.

That was July 2018. He didn't visit the country since then ehi h was unfortunate because I remember I was thinking about the next Sumner to come but he never did.

Since then we are only texting each other once in a while. Nothing special. I don't know what happened but since I met him and we went for a coffee I tried to see him more than friendly. I couldn't though. Since..... A month ago. I'm thinking about him like frequently.

Yesterday we had a huge conversation like nothing else we used to talk about. It was deep, man, and I found out he is depressed and unsatisfied with his life. I was so sad hearing that and a feeling of wanting to help him arised in me. But couldn't ofc.

Unfortunately due to his lack of enjoyment in life. I guess, he won't be able to enjoy flirting or even bother talk to me.

I was sad and I still am.

I'm not here to change anyone and I don't want to text a human being trying to help him and accidentally make him feel sorry about himself.

I can't force anything, I wish this was a good timing. But it ain't. He is very out of focus, anxious about his life, disappointed, unsatisfied. Etc.

I don't judge him ofc. I used to be like him. When I was in his condition I wasn't giving a damn about socializing and relationships.

thanx for reading me guys. Any comment would be appreciated.