Dear Ex; replace me again, idc.

Sorry for being so insecure, anxious and awkward. After all, you were my first boyfriend, first relationship, one where I wouldn't have to talk to over skype or similar to stay in contact. It's weird how you'd ask someone as awkward as me for a relationship out of the blue. I remember 31st march you passing that dumb note right before we turned to go our own ways home. The 'do you want to be my girlfriend?' Shiz. 31st march, I guessed it was an april fools joke so i just said exactly that and I remember you saying yeah, just an april fools. Days passed yet you were still acting a little overly attached to me until the 20th april when you asked me face-to-face to be with you. I didn't think much about it and just said yes. And to be fully honest, I never LOVED you at that time. But I did grow a small liking to you. All until 2 months later when we broke up due to one goddamn bitch pulling a prank on me. I wasn't too bothered at the time. And here we are 2 years later. I remember dating someone else with who I broke up soon enough just because I found out how jealous you'd get whenever I mentioned him. You started talking about me through my best friend, telling her you loved me and she told you I loved you too which I never confirmed. But she is my best friend ofcourse she's gonna tell me everything you tell her and I knew you would get close which happened. Sorry for avoiding you so coldly ever since, hurts me more than you... no, it doesn't hurt you, doesn't it?