Curse of Broken Heart

So...I deal with a health issue that is less than common. If I'm single or alone too long my heart has issues this has happened since I was 18. Which ironically is also when I stopped being a flirt and started trying to have a life. Sometimes it's just a slight pain like if your heart stops beating for a few seconds. A year or so ago I suffered a bad one where it felt like I was being stabbed through the chest (I was driving no less). I've been single over a year and while somedays are better tonight it just really has gripped me. Problem is it comes and goes. It's worst when I truly feel alone. However it can get worse at anytime. I've taken to calling it curse of broken hearts because that's what really triggers it. When dating I am 100% fine. When single...well I haven't ever been hospitalized because the problems last seconds but, I expect every day another one will happen. I don't like my curse but...I accept it.