Sex and Guilt TW sexual abuse

@unbrokenhearts

Hi. Thank you for sharing,I'm sad that you have had to go all though this, but happy to hear that you have a serious bf whoi you feel safe with.

it tfeels good and good makes the bad feelings go away for a bit. - are you saying that it is normal for you to have these bad feelings , and in some way you are using sex to numb them out?

usually have to drink beforehand - and is the same for the alcohol, or do you need that in order to be able to have enjoyable sex?

feel insanely guilty afterwards like I've done something wrong - you have nothing to feel guilty about , but given all that you have been through, its understandable that there should be some feelings around this, don't you think?

I feel really alone in this - hopefully in some small way just by reaching out you dont feel quite as alone, altho I get that this is a very personal thing to deal with.

I hope that this helps, even in a small way and if you ever want/need to chat, I am a listener here, you are more than welcome to drop me a message.

Take care
paul

@unbrokenhearts I feel like this too sometimes. Sometimes I am afraid the only thing my boy friend likes about me is sex and I need to prove myself sexually, but this is my own insecurities and distrust of men in general that makes me feel this way, not my boyfriend.