Porn ruined me and my life.

When i was younger i was addicted to porn but later on i was addicted to a porn with a type od fetish which i beleive is the root cause of my problem. When i was in middle school i had for a few months nonstop sexual addiction with fetish to my teacher and the same for a few of my friends. But it countinued for years and in hs i still communicated with them and when i did even by having conversation i had such a sexual rush. But my problem is i think i may be asexual also due to the fact to the friends or girls i found attractive to my hs school i had romantic fantasies and sexual fantasies without the fetish and hypersexuality i feel i enjoyed the feeling and it made me feel happy but the problem was i couldnt orgasm to those romantic feelings and it made stressed out thinking how when i get married how will i have healthy sexual relationship with my wife. But i feel my problem will go away if i find a girlfriend and one i can make a relationship last with but im not sure if that is going to solve the problem. If i ever love someone and have a relationship with them will i actually develop healthy sexual relationship and orgasm without feitsh?