Lonely demisexual...I feel so out of place.

I've had two failed engagements that I eventually terminated because of 70-30 unfairness which left me drained. Both were with regular heteros. I don't feel like I'm expecting much, especially sense I'm demi, I don't put a lot of weight behind exteriors...only in the case of visibly poor hygiene or a weight that would case eharm to their health (and when I say this, I mean really in the extreme sense, as I've been engaged to someone who was a little overweight before).

I often feel I'm not understood, respected or shown the type of care, tenderness and affection I give. Beyond someone being kind, loyal and respectful, this is all ask for. Just feeling very dejected and hopeless. I would and have looked for a demi like myself but we are rare and far between.