Hypersexuality in Teenagers?
I am 14 years old and I have been masturbating since I was 9, though I have memories going back to the ages of 5 or 6 of engaging in self pleasure though i didn't exactly recognize it then. While if it was just semi-normal masturbation i wouldn't consider this weird or anything out of the ordinary, however it's been getting consuming. When i turned 11 I started doing it without noticing, almost uncontrollably. i'd accidentally masturbate in class or in cars or in front of other people. I tried to stop myself and it worked for around a year but it was also the worst year of my life emotionally and I turned to self harm. I began using mastubation again as a self harm alternative. I realized that i always thought of self harm as more of a sexual release rather than a purely emotional release. This led me to explore kinks and masochism and start reading up on pain and blood fetishes. Recently I've been discovering a lot about my relation between pain and sexuality and there have been nights were I will cry over the fact that some of my fantasies could literally get me killed. Sometimes I will crave sexual attention so much that I will accidentally try to get my friends to give it to me. I become slightly hostile and dominant towards my friends, especially ones who I know either like me, are very sexual, or I find attractive. After I sleep or calm down or find some way to stop needed sexual attention I'll feel bad for manipulating them or hurting them and I've never physically hurt anyone but I'm terrified that I might. Does anyone have any advice on this?
@onmywaytosomethingbigger hey there. i know this is pretty late but this is the first time i saw your post. it sounds like you are struggeling a lot with your sexual drive, which is nothing to be ashamed of. how has this developed over the past two years?
Heyy, so um, I'm not very good with words and English. So, umm, i don't know how to explain, but, my hypersexuality started at 5/6 years old too, i was in Preschool (i used translator here), i was having lunch, then, my friend she was sitting in front of me, she was with her hands underneath the table, then an assistant came And he saw and said something like "hey, can you go wash your hands? That's disgusting.", I was a curious girl then, when I arrived my mom's store, I tried it. Since that day I think that was getting worse. I just realized that I had hypersexuality when i was 9/10 years old. I'm now 13 years old (I'll turn 14 this year), and I have wishes like... Umm, being tied or tortured, i don't know how to explain, but this is getting worse and worse. My fantasies are a little... Uhh... May k1ll me.. I just, um, sorry.. I needed to vent. (I USED TRANSLATOR HERE TOO SORRYðŸ˜)
I *** every day sometimes don’t hours. I am tight now actually.